Activating our Heart.

I divide my "heart" into four parts:

·       Physiological heart

·       Emotional heart

·       Mental heart

·       Energetic heart.

I want to know these elements of my heart better.

We are in a meeting of the Spiritual Exploration Lab.

For me, these four elements are enough, but the workshop participants want to explore more topics related to the heart, and I allow it.

We bring in more representations:

A representation for DIVINE LOVE

and a representation for Reality. And of course, there is also a representation for "Me."

I place the six representations in the field. There is almost no connection between them. And Reality is placed upon the Mental Heart.

I begin to step onto the representations, and the relationship of one of them with me is revealed.

The Biological Heart looks at me and tells me that I am DIVINE LOVE, when I agree to be. It is not something outside of me, and Reality, no matter what happens in it, is irrelevant to the true essence of who I am.

The Emotional Heart looks at me and asks that "I" give space to feelings. It tells me that I don't need DIVINE LOVE, I just need to be me, authentic.

The Mental Heart also looks at me and, like the Emotional Heart, tells me that I don't need DIVINE LOVE; I only need to be me, authentic. It also adds that Reality is a way to awaken in me to who I am.

The Energetic Heart tells me that it is the one connected to all that "Is," and this "Is" feels to me like the Akashic Records, the DNA layers, and more. It also tells me that it is the one who needs to activate it.

The representation of DIVINE LOVE asks for a balance between the masculine and the feminine and tells me that, in fact, it is softness.

And from the representation of Reality, several voices arise: that it is both the thing that moves everything and also contains evil, and it is also indifferent to the personal experience.

I introduce an additional representation into the field:

That which split us from DIVINE LOVE

And I begin another round of standing on the representations:

The Biological Heart continues to look at me: as long as you remember there is a heart and that you are breathing, you are okay.

My Emotional Heart moves and steps onto "Me" to support me.

The Mental Heart tells me that it will give meaning to Reality and to what is separated from Divine Love, and I feel it like a small child, and as it says this, it steps onto the representation of what is split.

Feeling like a small child who interprets reality not necessarily according to what it is, but according to the age and development it is in.

The Energetic Heart looks at this move and says that this is the entanglement.

And I indeed feel the childlike voice, which is a part of me, clinging to the interpretation it wants to give to what was separated from Divine Love.

DIVINE LOVE looks at everything and chooses not to intervene. It believes that, eventually, we will work it out and that there is no need for its intervention.

The representation of Reality moves away from the field.

What split from DIVINE LOVE wants to move closer to Reality, meaning to move away from the field, but my Mental Heart does not allow it.

My representation looks at all the representations and feels that it wants the Mental Heart to move closer to me.

The Biological Heart steps onto the "Me" beneath the Emotional Heart, and now "Me," the Emotional Heart, and the Biological Heart are together and waiting for the Mental Heart to join us.

It feels like everyone is waiting for the Mental, and that the Mental is like a small, stubborn child who is unwilling to let go of what was separated.

In another interpretation, outside the field, it feels like the insistence on holding onto trauma.

The Mental Heart, in response to everyone waiting for it, is willing to step off what separated, but is still not ready to connect with the rest.

In response, the Energetic Heart remains in place, looks at the Mental Heart, and tells it that it is here to support it.

The representation of DIVINE LOVE thinks that what is happening in the field is wondrous. It remains to continue observing.

The representation of Reality now moves to another area in the field. It stands behind DIVINE LOVE and presents its different layers.

Reality, even the difficult parts, is part of Divine Love; one only needs to agree to see it.

The representation of what split me from Divine Love moves to stand on the Mental Heart, as if saying, "The Mental Heart is mine, and I am not giving it up."

These movements in the field are interesting, and they tell me a story about myself, about my vulnerability, and about my readiness to be healed.

We finish this round, and I see that we don't have much time left, I introduce another representation into the field:

• What can activate the heart for us?

  
  

Until now, we have given space to things that affect the heart; we have even given space to trauma, but we are actually gathering here to activate the heart. For the activation of the heart frequency, and I feel it is time to introduce this representation.

I ask all participants to place one hand on the activation representation and one on the rest of the representations to activate the frequency.

This is a completely different experience. My whole body begins to vibrate. Even now, two days later, as I write this post and remember, I am "thrown" back into the experience, as if I am there.

The messages I receive from the field are:

To love the heart as it is. The physiological-biological heart. To stop for a moment and love it as it is.

I am love.

I am joy, and I see fireworks exploding in my mind's eye.

On the Mental representation, I feel how my entire lineage is sending me love, and simultaneously, I feel how hard it is for me to receive the love the lineage is sending. I stay for a bit with this difficulty and with the sensations of the Mental, and at a certain moment, the Mental Heart decides to join the rest of the heart representations and be between the Emotional Heart and the Biological Heart.

The Energetic Heart also—its message was that I am love, and it too, together with the Mental, went to stand with the rest of the heart representations.

Finally, we activated what created the separateness. When my hand stood on the activation representations and on the representations of what created the separateness, my whole body became "goosebumps," and a cold shiver passed through me. It felt like something moved within the emotions inside of it.

We finished the lab, and I remained with a floating sensation for over an hour. In fact, I had to leave the clinic and hug a tree or two to come back to myself.

I don't know what happened in that space, but the activation frequency activates itself every time I engage with this, and it is a powerful feeling.

And perhaps, perhaps when there are structures that are so strong—trauma structures that have gone with me for years—one needs something powerful, yet gentle, to bring these structures down.