My learning disabilities - What I have learned about them

I wanted to do a certain project, which means corresponding in English with a lot of people, and I felt stuck.

It was clear to me that my learning disability had something to do with it.

What is there in it?

What does it rest on, so heavily and firmly?

In September 2023, I did a Systemic­ lab (Now named The Spiritual Exploration Lab) that dealt with phobias.

I admit, my learning disability isn’t really a phobia, but it’s totally disrupting my life.

In the lab, we explored phobias and their connection to previous incarnations.

We set up four representations for: me, my fear of..., the subject, and the incarnation that created the fear.

I set up a representation for my difficulty with languages ​​instead of for a fear of…

Then a whole story emerged for me:

There is a war, and the king takes everyone who knows languages ​​so they can translate.

He doesn’t care if they’re boys or girls, he takes them all.

My father isn’t prepared for me to go; I’m his only daughter, and he wants to protect me, but I’m going. I’m a good subject, and what the king wants is more important to me than my father.

Then my father dies of a broken heart.

(This is about a father in another incarnation, not my father in this incarnation.)

I feel how I, as Yael, carry the pain of that father; how in not knowing languages, I "protect" myself, or fulfill his need to protect me and keep me close.

This is an amazing insight.

The Systemic lab doesn’t deal with therapy, so I didn’t continue with the session. Instead, I stopped and asked all the participants to share what happened to them in their story.

We all had a common theme: death.

Each and every one of the participants raised a story of death, in one way or another.

I asked them each to set up representations for: me, the phobia, and death.

When I was representing death, a song came to me that I wrote for my grandfather when he passed away.

I was 10 years old then.

Hmmm...Is my grandfather related to my disability?

Curious to know if this really is about my grandfather, or if the song that came to me was a gateway to other information, I set up a representation for whoever the death belonged to, in previous generations or incarnations.

I stood on the representations and significant knowledge came up: In many incarnations, I knew many languages ​​and traveled the world, and in many of these incarnations, I died on the way.

That is: Those who know languages ​​= roaming around the world = dead.

Then I stood on death again and it said to me: Even those who don’t roam around the world, and those who don’t know languages—die.

Suddenly, the process gained proportion.

If I were doing a whole session on myself, I would add the Akashic records, and bring in all the reincarnations in which I traveled the world and didn’t die, to balance the information that emerged.

What I learned about myself was very significant.

The other participants in the lab felt the same—at the end of the session, each of them looked at their phobia and felt relaxed.